Thomas

I brought this from my myspace:

I've finally found the words for something that really shook me.
With the stuff that happened with my mom I found myself questioning a lot of what I believe. I was wondering why I would be rocked to the core if I really believed what I claimed to. The fact that I questioned worried me. I started thinking I was a total fake, a guy full of someone else's words, with hardly any of it real to myself.
But as the dust cloud of confusion stirred up by my anger began to settle I began to see. What I saw was that I was still just a man. I have emotions. I have doubts. I have fears. And I saw that all of that does not change Him. He knows all of that about me! He sees me with such clarity I can't imagine it. Jesus didn't kick Thomas out of the club because of his doubts...He called Thomas to come and see, and believe! He loved Thomas, He embraced him. God knows we have a lot of growing to do. We've strayed along way off from all that He created us to be. When am I going to accept His love unconditionally? Most of us have been told He loves us unconditionally, but do we accept His love uncondtionally. I still catch myself trying to earn His love now and again. Oh, if I could just accept it!! If WE could just accept it!! What are you keeping between Him and you? What makes you think He can't love you? What makes you think He can't love you the way you are?
God is not going to cast me aside because I have some struggles. He invites me to examine Him, to find the truth and to believe. This is God who turned Saul into Paul!
Lord thank you for never leaving me, and for promising to finish what You began in me!

my mind is so humbled by His greatness